hey.. ive delete some old post... but it's ok.

sorry for all my blog.. it got deleted..

heyheyhey..

im very tired...

Miss Liana Sheen Masangya

i love this girl so much, well she brings out the best of me. i feel happy even though wala pa akong change na makita siya o makasama siya na kami lang dalawa, well, lalake ako pero ako pa itong kinikilig pag kausap ko siya.. :) well, 3 years daw?? dun lang daw pede maging kami if makatapos na siya ehh.. tagal pa nuun, pero i think it's worth it na maghintay ako sa kanya ahh. si liana naman un ehh . ung mahal ko.. di siya masyado maganda, but for me, maganda siya in and out.. ang nagustuhan ko sa kanya ehh , ang pagiging simple nya.. ung di maarte.. naisip ko nga ehh. ang swerte ko na pinaligaw niya ako ehh. suber...

i hope dumating ung araw nayun na mahalin niya din ako ehh.. ayun lang wish ko. alam niyo kasi gusto na gusto ko na siya pakasalan ehh. even na bata pa ako?? i want to have kids with her.. sabi ng nanay niya. kung seryoso daw talaga ako sa kanya ehh.. need ko puntahan sa bahay nila. pero wala naman talagang problema un ehh.. ako pa?? hmm..

hindi ako sure kung sasagutin niya ako,. pero it's worth it na magwait ako sa kanya..

i love her so much.. ^^,

IM A SUCKER FOR LOVE

moving on for me, for the once i loved. take's like a century to do. but here i am blogging to you.. bout me. haist. i just can't do it at first but here i am. i have carried on.. thanks all to my friends.

at first, i've cried over and over again. i think for 2months.. hey hey..
but now, i just realized that it's not worth it.
it took me almost 9months to move on. it's just now that i've realized that, why i would cry for someone that doesn't even care about me. but it's ok.. i have learned from my mistakes.. so down. so un happy. now. so happy and up up and away .. yoinks..

oh. i have remembered that she didn't even care for me when i am having trouble at my high school days.
didn't even visited me when i was admitted to the hospital. didn't care about our anniversary, after our anniversary, she texted me, "STOP TEXTING ME, NAFUFULL INBOX KO SAYO PUCH*" as verbalized by her..

i've been a fool, dumb and even a shit! imagine when he answered me. im very happy and after a month then i knew, it's not just about me it's about another boy. she first answered the boy and after 2 days she answered me. damn! and im so dumb, so inlove. i gave her another chance.

another, she told me, she needs space then, i said ok.. i gave her space, after a week i went to their house, hoping to please her. but nah! i saw her walking with another guy, i think they are two. so now i know why she wont text .. ^^, and another. this guy, that she have a great big crush on. texted her. then all suddenly her heart starts to pump! if i didn't talk to those guys. my ex. would have been flirting with them until now..

after we broke up, im shocked that after our break up after a month she easily replace me with this man. that dumb ass man, that i think is lust! hah.. f*ck.. it's ok.

and all she listens is her f*cking friends and not me, cause she believes them than i.

it's not that i hate her. it's just that im f*cking telling my self to stop bluffin around.. xD

i hate it, when someones mentioning her name, it kinda irritates me.. f!

i did some stupid things and she did her part!
were break even!--

just when i thought she's the one, it turned out not. ^^,)

im not to blame, blame them. i have nothing to do with all motherfuckers around!

it's me.

Life is a very delicate thing that we all people have, some wishes to have a very simple life, some wishes to have a very delicate life, on the other hand I want to have a simple life, like I have 4 years ago, when it’s just about me and me. Nothing else, im kind of very confused of who am I right now, I just don’t know my self anymore, I cant say that im that popular but I just know so many people around me and just now im very irritated by it. Because sometimes people will laugh at me and even help me go down/ fall down. I admit im a very snob/suplado person, and sometimes I continuous talking about my self that people thing I very boastful and I admit I kinda sweet when it comes to girl, for the fact that I don’t have any girl sister and I have a lot of girl cousins and im very close to them I think that’s the reason why, people acuse me of being maniac/ horny guy. And I don’t have time to explain this to them, because all I know is I have nothing to prove to them. Fuck haters..

All I wish is to have a normal life, with no vices, bands or any girls. It’s hard for me, even when the girl once I love, didn’t want me because I have this dirty background. It’s hard to change once you have been exposed to this kinds of environment . now I want to change for good and I know I want to change for me, for me to prove all haters wrong.. (^^,)

a lifetime note, that i will cherish

 I love the idea of lifestyle design – I want to design a life that matches my priorities and values, I want to live with intention. Many of the lifestyle design blogs I’ve read are inspiring and interesting, and many of them have good tips and tools. Besides, I truly admire people who are going after their dreams.

On the other hand,  some of these blogs are full of egregious self-promotion andbarely disguised disdain for any other kind of lifestyles. The theme seems to be: if you are not (1) starting your own business in social media, web design, or personal coaching, (2) working in Thailand, Bali or another developing country with a low cost of living,  and (3) spending money on lifestyle design e-books and e-courses, then you must be too scared, stupid, and naive to grasp your One True Passion. Oh, and your soul will wither and die.

I also hate the fact that the default definition of lifestyle design – which sounds like a concise and elegant way to describe “living with intention” – is “I am going to be on permanent travel selling e-books and information products (with limited time offers and modules and super value-add bonuses!).”

Being OK with being conventional

Conventional has a negative connotation in the language of lifestyle design – it is a catch all for “average,” for “complacent,” for “ordinary.”  Conventional people are unsuccessful mice who are too afraid to change their lives, or even worse, they are deluded saps who doesn’t even know what they are missing. Who wants to be ordinary when you can “hack” or “test” your way to extraordinary, epic, radical, and awesomeFREEDOM!?

I say that in jest, sort of. The truth is, I am envious of people who have figured out exactly what they want their life to be and have pursued that with passion (either that, or they are doing a great job faking it). I just wish they cut out the smugness for the rest of us.

Being OK with not wanting what these lifestyle design bloggers want doesn’t mean that I am lying to myself. If I am truly honest with myself, I know: I am wary of taking on very big financial risks. I don’t want to live in Thailand and work on a beach all day. I write a blog because I enjoy it, and my hourly income is somewhere in the neighborhood of fast food and retail. (Monetizing a blog is hard work – don’t let anyone tell you otherwise). I want to go to business school. I want a career that is interesting and financially rewarding, but it will still be work. I want to live near my parents when they reach their 70s. I want a nice house. I want a few rental properties to supplement my cash flow. I want to travel, but I plan to have a home base. I want a dog. I want to marry the man I met in high school.

Conventional doesn’t mean we are dead inside

As you can see, my aspirations are quite middle-of-the-road. The fact that I have a corporate job, I have an apartment, and I have more than 3 pairs of shoes certainly doesn’t mean that I look into the mirror and see “dark, hollowed eyes match the dark, hollowed soul that once was a vibrant, enthusiastic one, looking forward to all of life’s gifts.” This isn’t an attack on Nina. She has written some thought-provoking stuff, and she seems like a pretty cool person. But the sentiment that “if you are not doing what I’m doing then you are a dead shell of a person” is a prevalent one among lifestyle design bloggers, and that frankly irritates the heck out of me.

I can’t make $97,000 traveling through Latin America. I certainly don’t make this money charging a $20/month VIP subscription to read about how I make money. Again, this isn’t an attack on Ash. I respect anyone who can make six figures selling and hustling in Chile and has the time to drink wine during afternoons. I respect people who have found work that makes them happy and fulfilled. I respect people who work hard for what they have and I believe that lifestyle bloggers who make a living at this work very hard.We all work hard.

But am I a dunce because I have a long commute, I have long travels and I take client calls at 5am on Saturday mornings? (Wait, do I really want to hear the answer to this?  ). I think I can learn from lifestyle design bloggers, which is why I still read their blogs. Call me crazy, but I am getting just the tiniest inkling that the respect’s not mutual. Hence the hate part of my love-hate relationship.

Share your stories, don’t be a jerk

The bottom line is that like most of the population, I do not have goals that consist of getting rid of 95% of my stuff, living in a developing country and selling e-courses on teaching people how to do the same. If that’s what someone wants to do, he/she should absolutely go for it. Regale us with stories, tell us about your struggles, teach us what you’ve learned. But please, please, don’t be a jerk about it.

"Eleven Hints for Life"

• "Eleven Hints for Life"
• 
  
• 1. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return.
• But what is more painful is to love someone and never
• find the courage to let that person know how you feel.
• 
  
• 2. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who
• means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was
• never meant to be and you just have to let go.
• 
  
• 3. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a
• porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away
• feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.
• 
  
• 4. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose
• it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been
• missing until it arrives.
• 
  
• 5. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an
• hour to like someone, and a day to love someone-but it
• takes a lifetime to forget someone.
• 
  
• 6. Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth,
• even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you
• smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day
• seem bright.
• 
  
• 7. Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go,
• be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and
• one chance to do all the things you want to do.
• 
  
• 8. Always put yourself in the other's shoes. If you feel that it
• hurts you, it probably hurts the person too.
• 
  
• 9. A careless word may kindle strife. A cruel word may wreck
• a life. A timely word may level stress. But a loving word may
• heal and bless.
• 
  
• 10. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best
• of everything they just make the most of everything that comes
• along their way.
• 
  
• 11. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, ends with
• a tear. When you were born, you were crying and everyone
• around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die,
• you're the one smiling and everyone around you is crying. 

THOUGHTS ABOUT LIFE! - just thought of it

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to 
ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back. 

smoke..

just want to smoke before i continue blogging.. fuck! it's very fun fun..  wait.. just have a smoke and be back.. xD

This Girl @ my class..

i have this new girl in our class, she's kinda tall .

•  i think 5'7 in height
•  normal teenage body
•  beautiful eyes
• very kissable lips
• what you call this suplada type??
• very mahinhin
• a very very convincing smile

i want to look at her every day. even for the rest of my life.
i like it when i look at her.. it makes me feel free.
but i think i kinda irritate her. damn! idk what to do..
i just want to look at her at say nothing at all, i think that's the way she is..

i just like her. not love her. you know, it kinda hard
when you have just seen this girl and then in a click you tell her you love her.. tsk!

it's just she is so pretty that i think when i ask her: " CAN I COURT YOU?"
she's just going to IGNORE me. maybe im going crazy but i just want to tell you about this girl.

TRUST ME! SHE'S ONE OF A KIND

well. school school school!.. college.

hmp. i hate studying but i must, F! hahah. just bluffing. finally i have alot of reason why i need to stay here at our province, i wanted to study at manila but, my mother wont allow me, but my father, very much supports me. at first im very pissed because of our school policy's. F! but the my mom  explained it all to me, hmm. to wherever i go. it will be just like that. very strict. i think because i am dealing now w/my future. it kinda sucks but i think it well get just fine. not that much.. haha.. ^^, my dad and i sealed a deal about a toy for the bog boys, hmm. i think he is talking about a car when i graduate and then i wondered what is 4 years, when i graduate. i will get a car. it's kinda of a good motivation.. for me. to study well. I HOPE! (^^,)

FEELING GREAT

now im feeling well, wow this blog is really that effective. now im  all fine and relieved  it's 11:51pm. it's very late, but it's ok atleast im having fun, with the stuggles that i have . im just really tired of this problems in my life.. well, this is no problem if no solutions. if someone would read this. just remember to laugh to all of your problems.. like me, for a 16yr old kid like me it's quite hard.. but still, im alive not trying to commit any suicide. cause im hopping for that someday that all this will be done, well done..

bakit ba ganito ang buhay ko?

haist. ng bloblog lang para makatakas sa aking mga problema, wala kasi akong malalapitan at ayoko na lapitan, trust no one nga kung sa iba, eto ako ngayon tambak ang problema ko, haist, para bang isang maliit na daga hanggang lumaki at naging elepante na, minsan na isip ko din mgkapamatay pero naisip ko na it's not worth it, kasi dami pa problem sa life, im only 16years old pero gusto ko na sumuko sa buhay kong ito, haist. lahat ng tao galit sa akin, dahil sa mga bagay na hindi ko naman ginawa. naasar ako, dahil talagang gusto ko na magbago, pero wala effect ehh. wala lang sa kanila. kasi kahit pilitin ko mg bago may mga tao na hindi talaga ako maapriciate kahit ano gawin ko, kasi hindi ko naman nga maipleplease ang lahat, haist. kaya nga ngayon, want ko na umiwas sa lahat, inom, yosi, kahit barkada, dahil sa panahon na ganito want ko na talaga magpakatino, kahit 1 beses lang.. haist. sa ngayon papaubaya ko na lahat sa diyos ahh. haist. wala na din naman ako magagawa ehh.. F! the world. hai. sana lumipas na to lahat . auko na. di ko na kaya.. haist.. IM TIRED!