IM A SUCKER FOR LOVE

moving on for me, for the once i loved. take's like a century to do. but here i am blogging to you.. bout me. haist. i just can't do it at first but here i am. i have carried on.. thanks all to my friends.

at first, i've cried over and over again. i think for 2months.. hey hey..
but now, i just realized that it's not worth it.
it took me almost 9months to move on. it's just now that i've realized that, why i would cry for someone that doesn't even care about me. but it's ok.. i have learned from my mistakes.. so down. so un happy. now. so happy and up up and away .. yoinks..

oh. i have remembered that she didn't even care for me when i am having trouble at my high school days.
didn't even visited me when i was admitted to the hospital. didn't care about our anniversary, after our anniversary, she texted me, "STOP TEXTING ME, NAFUFULL INBOX KO SAYO PUCH*" as verbalized by her..

i've been a fool, dumb and even a shit! imagine when he answered me. im very happy and after a month then i knew, it's not just about me it's about another boy. she first answered the boy and after 2 days she answered me. damn! and im so dumb, so inlove. i gave her another chance.

another, she told me, she needs space then, i said ok.. i gave her space, after a week i went to their house, hoping to please her. but nah! i saw her walking with another guy, i think they are two. so now i know why she wont text .. ^^, and another. this guy, that she have a great big crush on. texted her. then all suddenly her heart starts to pump! if i didn't talk to those guys. my ex. would have been flirting with them until now..

after we broke up, im shocked that after our break up after a month she easily replace me with this man. that dumb ass man, that i think is lust! hah.. f*ck.. it's ok.

and all she listens is her f*cking friends and not me, cause she believes them than i.

it's not that i hate her. it's just that im f*cking telling my self to stop bluffin around.. xD

i hate it, when someones mentioning her name, it kinda irritates me.. f!

i did some stupid things and she did her part!
were break even!--

just when i thought she's the one, it turned out not. ^^,)

im not to blame, blame them. i have nothing to do with all motherfuckers around!